By Myra Dempsey
I woke up this morning with that "I didn't even get close to enough sleep last night" feeling and immediately swung into "Mom Mode." Eli's glasses had been missing since yesterday afternoon, and my thoughts of "I'm sure they'll turn up" had soured overnight into internal grumblings and blame shifting. As I knelt in a pile of cracker bits, LEGO pieces, marker lids, and dirt, all unearthed from the abyss under the couch, my pride and selfishness reared up big time. The "injustice" of the mundane mom duties made me impatient and harsh toward my kids. I yelled at them, employed guilt and shame as feeble attempts at behavior modification, and I hated the words I heard coming out of my own mouth.
After the mess was cleaned up (and glasses were found!) I apologized to my children for yelling, but I knew I still needed to address the root of the problem...my sinful heart. God was so faithful to draw me to repentance and minister to me! I read in Hebrews 4:14-16 "Since then we have a great high priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus, the Son of God, let us hold fast our confession. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every aspect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need."
Praise God! He does not stand far off, shaking his head at yet another failure of mine. No, he has drawn very near. So close that he put on flesh like mine, knelt in dirt like me, felt the pressures and expectations of everyday life like me, but Jesus stayed so connected to the Father that he walked this earth without sin! He lived the perfect life, unlike me, and died the brutal death that I deserved!
This morning was my time of need. Moment to moment, I'm in need. And Jesus has perfectly met every single one of my needs, with the mercy that flows like a torrent from that throne of grace! Draw near with confidence, dear brothers and sisters! Admit your need, look to Jesus in the midst of your sin, and experience the freedom that comes from his amazing mercy and grace.